THE FUNNIEST THINGS happen when you stop to get fuel for the car. I get out of the car as usual and as I move around to the filler cap, I notice a black Skyline pull up at the adjacent pump. As I am filling my car I notice a young guy about 20-25 get out of his car and do the same. Nothing as yet has particularly drawn my attention. As my mind wanders during the process of waiting for the tank to fill, I note with interest this guy’s boots—they are work books, but not just any kind, they are brand new.
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I’m captivated with how impressive they look; a fawny suede look, ankle high cut with new clean laces tied neatly at the back… just then I was tempted to say to him, with unbending intent; “New boots, mate.”
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I then wondered why I was tempted to start such a conversation with a complete stranger, and then I recalled the Toltec wisdom teaching of Ruiz, stating our innocence from childhood has been lost. Their teaching seems true that in this innocence, we’re truly more ourselves and things that have caused us to doubt ourselves and feel guilty are things that have been ‘brought in to’ our experience, namely our upbringing, and our developmental environment.
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I went to a coach recently who suggested we have a ‘little boy’ or ‘little girl’ inside us. That this little person could truly be seen as our spirit, our true selves—the self that sees and feels things very truly [as we perceive them], and this is what makes us respond to truth, in truthful ways. i.e. We respond exactly the way we see it. In other words, no matter what we experience, our little person inside us can tell exactly how we feel and is affected “in our truth” whether we like it or not! For instance, when we’re depressed, our little boy or girl is crying inside—if he or she cries loud enough we could become suicidal, and even attempt to / or carry through with it. He or she is our “truth monitor”.
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I seems very compelling to me that it is difficult to undo some of what the world has done to me; I know I’m the way I am due to a combination of what my mother and father endowed me, and also to my environmental and developmental circumstances through life right to this very point, now! I am very happy and contented thus far, and I’ve been mightily blessed, BUT, could I ask that sortn of innocent question and create a conversation where I am so relaxed that the real Spirit takes over?
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I know it happens sometimes. But it doesn’t seem to happen often enough—in other words, I am aware of it happening at times and I balk at the opportunity—perhaps that is also the wisdom of prudence?
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Makes for pleasant reflective thinking to muse over these things…
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I’m captivated with how impressive they look; a fawny suede look, ankle high cut with new clean laces tied neatly at the back… just then I was tempted to say to him, with unbending intent; “New boots, mate.”
S
I then wondered why I was tempted to start such a conversation with a complete stranger, and then I recalled the Toltec wisdom teaching of Ruiz, stating our innocence from childhood has been lost. Their teaching seems true that in this innocence, we’re truly more ourselves and things that have caused us to doubt ourselves and feel guilty are things that have been ‘brought in to’ our experience, namely our upbringing, and our developmental environment.
S
I went to a coach recently who suggested we have a ‘little boy’ or ‘little girl’ inside us. That this little person could truly be seen as our spirit, our true selves—the self that sees and feels things very truly [as we perceive them], and this is what makes us respond to truth, in truthful ways. i.e. We respond exactly the way we see it. In other words, no matter what we experience, our little person inside us can tell exactly how we feel and is affected “in our truth” whether we like it or not! For instance, when we’re depressed, our little boy or girl is crying inside—if he or she cries loud enough we could become suicidal, and even attempt to / or carry through with it. He or she is our “truth monitor”.
S
I seems very compelling to me that it is difficult to undo some of what the world has done to me; I know I’m the way I am due to a combination of what my mother and father endowed me, and also to my environmental and developmental circumstances through life right to this very point, now! I am very happy and contented thus far, and I’ve been mightily blessed, BUT, could I ask that sortn of innocent question and create a conversation where I am so relaxed that the real Spirit takes over?
S
I know it happens sometimes. But it doesn’t seem to happen often enough—in other words, I am aware of it happening at times and I balk at the opportunity—perhaps that is also the wisdom of prudence?
S
Makes for pleasant reflective thinking to muse over these things…
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